Well I Tried

I tried to be normal with food. I tried to plan a way to lose weight in a 'healthy' fashion but I failed at that too. I want to see the numbers drop again. I want to be the skinny girl. I don't care if people give me a hard time for not eating around them. I'm done. I can't keep acting normal and being miserable. I want to feel light again. I felt so amazing at school when there was no food in my dorm to tempt me. I looked so good then, but since being home this summer I've only been a cow. So I am done being gross. No more no more no more.