Saturday

No power today so food shouldn't be too rough, but all my fruit is going bad for the week and I cant make tea.
Coffee
Bagle w/ peanutbuttter
Pizza

I should be the only one home when I get back so I'll try to purge what is still in me by then before i meet my parents at the pool to swim laps. i do find it funny that now that i dont have a boy touching my body that i decide to get serious again. i think part of that is because for him i wanted to eat normal because i knew he would get mad at me for purging, but now it doesnt matter what he thinks since he doesn't think we should hang out and rather actively try to get over each other.Plus now i have to actually try to get guys instead of using him as my reason why I don't have to.
I think i might buy some laxatives for the days i can't regurgitate what i consume or if my family is too close. Any have any advice or opinions on lax usage?  
Also I was watching American Pie and they talked about IPecs or something like that that makes you throw up so i was wondering if that was something I could just buy straight up. I really dont want purging to be my main form of thin ii'd rather restrict but some days I'm too week or too watched so it'll be nice to have a plan B.

1 month and 5 days until beach time with my friends!